大学后的人生去向

大学最后一个学期要面对人生的去向了

最近被一大堆的烦恼给缠上了

考试要保持3.0以上

毕业后要从事什么行业

是否要考取专业文凭

待在槟城发展需要的交通，住宿方面等等

申请了几份算大的公司

还在等面试的机会

面试恐惧症真的快把我逼疯了

很想随便找个小公司待着就算了

什么烦恼都没了

但为了未来着想

还是硬着头皮去申请了大公司

毕业出来找工就是所谓的社会竞争的第一步

到处都是大学生，工作机会就那么几个

面对即将变成无业游民

真的最担心还是零收入

想想到底是我选工还是工选我啊？

不管那么了，相信上帝会迎领我去正确的方向

希望接下来考试，工作面试和其他事情一切都顺顺利利

Proverbs 3:5-6

Trust in the LORD with all your heart And do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He will make your paths straight.

Mid Semester Break

Still have 2 more days my mid semester break gonna end
Ohh.. Just feel like one week holiday is toooo short
Wednesday was a public holiday and there was earthquake happened in Indonesia 
I can felt the tremor inside my room. That time I though there was construction near my hostel because the tremor like worker is piling. This was the first time I felt the tremor. Earth is giving a signal to us and hope the end of world wont happen. 


Yesterday finally went out and did some crazy stuff
Spent money that over my daily budget. (still feel guilty but is worth for it) I just took bus and went to shopping mall alone and enjoy my half day there. Bought my favorite rotiboy and red bean milk tea as my lunch.


It really felt good yesterday because I had utilized my student card by watching 3 movies costed me ONLY RM18! RM6 per movie is cheap enough for me. I watched 3 movies "The hunger game", " The war of Titans" and " Street Dance 2"  in row from 12pm until 6pm. Sound crazy right? 
Recently since when the semester break started, I keep watching dramas and movies inside my room. Then I went outside, again movie marathon. I wonder when I gonna stop addicted with it. -.- . A lot of assignments and midterm exam still waiting for me but the sense of urgency still not strong enough to motivate me open the book. 
After watched movies, I walked around shopping mall before I went back.Actually I plan to shop a lot of thing and I did come out a list-to-buy. But due to lack of time so I just desisted my mind. I only managed to buy some nail polish. I plan to do manicure for my nail before school is started. =) 


Second year in university is almost past half. I still havent get better in managing my study. I hope my academic result not getting worse because I need to go for internship in my third year. Entering big 4 is not easy, it is very competitive. Grade not ideal enough, the chance to get interview will be smaller. I just want to get a good experience for my internship. Pray hard that I can get the better result in this semester. 

Busy Exam Week

Recently busy with Exam Marathon
5 days exam nonstop
1 day 1 paper
Kill me...@.@

So far still ok
3 more subjects to go
The most tough two subjects will take on the last two days
I hope the last two subjects dont kill me gao gao

5 days exams really is a challenge
I see it as a challenge but not a bad luck or what
Add oil...^^

Fun during study

During study week, this is what I like to do..

Draw something on the note make my book look more colorful 

Color can help memorizing..=)

When I stress or feel boring in study just do something fun to relax awhile 

LOL

This is the most funny thing I did

I use my sticky notes to do 4 different face expressions 

Ignore my ugly face la...>.<

If you laugh

CONGRATULATION 

I hope I can release your stress now

Next week will be the nightmare for me

Monday to Friday 5 papers continuously

I hope I wont fall down

I want to hit my target

I prefer to sleep lesser now rather than I not sleep next week

I need to sleep

If not I might be fall asleep in exam hall

Go Go Power Rager!!

Exam is coming

OMG!!!!

Until now I still so steady for my exams...

My exam mood or even study mood not come yet...

Better wake me up!!

Monday I will have two exam..

Titas in essay form

Organizational Behavior( OB) so many thing need to memorize 

However, I didnt memorize any single point!!

Die...-.-

I hope I wont cry after come out from exam hall...

Good Luck and all the best to me...

After today, I know that I want hit my target

But not I wish or hope to hit my target

God bless me...

Sorry, my faith is just low because I didnt prepare well yet...=(

Suitable or not?

Recently my friend posted that she just found that she not suitable in accounting filed.

The first question came out from my mind is "Are you? Ya.. Perhaps you are"

Then, my turn, I asked myself:"Am I suitable to study accounting?"

Few days ago, my friend asked me again:" Do you want to change your course next term?"

I still can change course after one year, I still can study other course, is not too late...

Another question pop out in my mind:" Am I want to change course?"

No, my answer is "No"

From the first day I chose account I already make my final decision...

It wont change unless I really cant keep going anymore...

I admit that Im not like accounting but I also not hate it...

Ok, I didnt get good result in this field too...

But that's not mean that I have to change to another course to ensure I can score higher and easier

Or change to another course that I "think" I interested

What I can say is I just not put effort on it...

One thing you can say that Im afraid

Afraid for what?

I afraid when I change another course I need to adapt it again...

Each field have each difficult part...

No, actually I afraid to change and I will be regret at the end

I cant take risk to change my course...

Too risky for this bet.. I not dare to lose it 

When people said they changed their field to work after graduated...

I can understand because that is not they want

One different is you change field before graduated or after...

I prefer after because from my opinion I have a certificate on my hand

I can do anything without worry...

When I fail, I still can go back...

At least, accounting is a professional job..

When you ask Am I suitable?

I can say no answer for suitable or not

We never suitable if you dont want it...

Since we born, we never ask ourselves are we suitable to born at here

Is it suitable for me to this school or what

However, when we grow up, we start think by ourselves and go our way...

One thing I realized is since I born

I never thought to change my way or ask myself suitable or not..

But I just keep walking until here without realizing 

Is it good? 

Yea, so far and so good...

I know what I want and I know what I interested...

Is not same... 

There is no right or wrong

God had plan everything for us...

Faith always is a good answer...

You believe then you can..=)

I'm super tired now

But I still want to update my blog

Last Thursday I actually went to Kuala Lumpur to attend AIESEC Member Committee Vice Presidents Election at Taylor's University Lakeside campus

There really is a beautiful university

It more like a shopping center rather than an university

Although I missed the chance to attend another event called 1 Malaysia Dana Belia which held by Prime Minister
Through that event, we can really meet so many awesome youth
How success they and how tiny I am
I dont know whether next time I got another chance meet them or not
But what I sure that next time it will be different of me to attend this event...=)

Back to the MC VP election
That day I can see Passion, Spiritual, and Courage on each candidate
They really ready for it
Not only candidate, I also can felt how excited others is
How different we all become mentally
That day really a meaningful and special day for all of us
Perhaps this is my first time attend but I hope this feeling still able to keep lasting

AIESEC create a beautiful moment in their life and me too
Perhaps other may dont know what, how and why is AIESEC
I also no idea but it really awesome

One thing I have to bare in mind is AIESEC is not all in my uni life
I cant make it as my core of rotation and just rotate around it
There are so many thing in my life beside AIESEC

The road chose

Suddenly flashed back how I walked until here.
My primary school is S.J.K Yuk Choi
A school that very near from my house
After UPSR, i have no idea where i should go
I had thought to study at private school at time
But because I just get one A and I really have to study hard to catch up
So i chose to study at government school, S.M.K Muhibbah
Also the school that very near from my house and just beside my primary school


My secondary school not a famous school and only few chinese student
I studied one year removed class before From one 
Just because my parent worry that I cant catch up
( Mathematic and Science using english that time) 
 Then after PMR, I got 3 A 
and I have to separate with my best friends
I studied science scheme and my friends studied art scheme 
And only one chinese in my class, 
That time I chose science scheme is not because i like to study science
Just because the teachers that teach in science class is better than the art class
Some art class teachers really lazy and dont know how to teach..(ooops.. sorry)
Really different science class and art class



During Form 5, I made the decision to drop Engineering drawing and take accounting myself
Although i like drawing so much but my engineering drawing result not so good
Again i take accounting because i thought after SPM, i still can choose to go art or science
I never attend accounting class and i just tuition outside then go take accounting in SPM
That time i take 12 subjects
Math, Additional math., Account. BC, Moral, Phys. BM, BI, Chem., Bio, Sej and EST
Fortunately, I got 3 A1 and 3 A2..


That time i wish to become a teacher
But I didnt applied maktab and went to applied Matriculation and Actuarial Science at UTAR( I like math so much 'that time')
When I got the chance study Actuarial Science at UTAR but i heard it hard to study 
Finally I chose government, but i cant got in matrix during first intake( you know my result really not good)
And I went to buat rayuan and finally got the chance to study at KML for second intake
I study art scheme there, I just thought that I really lucky can study in matrix based on my bad result
Matrix is the school that straight A people can study for chinese 
My 3 A1 and 3 A2 result can study there really a miracle...


After matrix, then I just go and applied maktab
and I got into interview and passed the interview
I got major in Bahasa Cina and minor in PJK i think
Unfortunately, I cant get education course in application IPTA but get USM accounting
Then now i'm studying in USM


You know,
My interest is indoor design but my future is accounting
I just think if I dont study accounting but study Indoor design
What will happen to me?
I believe that I wont in USM now and know all my new friends here
I dont know whether my choose is right or wrong
But i will keep going until graduate
This is the road i chose to go and I have to walk until the end no matter how rugged the road is

LEAD my life

Last weeks I just went to LEAD( Leadership Exploration And Development) 2010

It's too bad that I not blogging that time

because there were a lot of things I wished to write it down...

LEAD really a awesome seminar

I learned a lot in these 3 days 2 nights

These few days I talked a lot, tried to speak out my opinions

no more lack of confidence

from step in to step out...

because I just felt that all were the same

before this I just felt that there are many leaders in newbies of AIESEC

And I were the most ordinary one...

But I can saw that we all just same, just want to learn and develop ourselves 

A greatest person also got one side of ordinary...

During this seminar, I aslo can knew more people

They shared their experiences and stories...

People you felt cold before suddenly became kind

(just try to talk to the person that you dont know)

Especially all Faci and OC

They worked hard for this seminar

( not for them but for us)

I still remember one of the faci said We are not a master

we just want to share what we know and experienced

Thank you very much....^^

In this seminar, I also saw the heart from each senior AIESECer,

Some of them have to graduate next year and,

some of them "aged" but still be one member in this family

One of them told me that just do what you like to do in AIESEC,

You no need have to love AIESEC,

Just love what you doing in AIESEC,

and build up the passion

(I like this phrase so much)

Someone also told me that 

I'm quiet girl but impressed when saw me great performance in LEAD

Sabrina also asked me that how can i change(grow) so fast

I cant get a suit answer 

i think LEAD made me grow up...

There was a big change for me...

I hope that i can keep 'growing'

I hope that next times I meet them

I become better...

What I confuse now ??

Is my brave and confidence will disappear after LEAD?

Lastly,

I love sugar cubes so much...

Why dont we set up a sugar cube corner at AIESEC Cubicle??

* I like this picture so much...
  Thank gene harn and sorry if i used this picture without your permission
( Is this picture copyright reserve?)