Monday, September 27, 2010

LC Day


Yesterday was LC day, we went to Penang National Park and Muka Haed.
We went for jungle trekking and then went to the beach. 
During the trekking, we took a rest every time we reached a station and then continuous our trip. We had to pass all the rugged and rough path. And finally we reached the top and went to the beach successfully.

In the trip, we became closer to the nature.
Jungle, water and insect and animal
Ecosystem, all depend and need to each other.

Just same in our life, take a rest in our journey is just want to go more far. 
We don’t know when we can reach the top place and never think when will be the end.
We just keep going. 
When we face any challenge, we just face it bravely. 
Even though we fall down, we still can stand up by our own.
Although we hurt, we still can continuous our journeys.

Because in our mind, we just need to think that:
"I can go more further as much as i can"
Failure is not the hardest moment,
Stand up after fell down is the most hardest moment...  

And we have to believe that we will reach our destination if and only if we hold on and straight to the end.

At the same time, we need friends.
Friend who can lend a helping hand when you got problem
Friend who you have to offer your hand when he or she in the same situation too...
No one is alone in the world
We need each other very much
Just appreciate people who pass by and beside you...




Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Random post

A question appear in my mind
doubt me awhile...
But I guess i got the answer
 
Last week I just met the intern that want to back to Vietnam
Last sunday I just met the new intern and that day is her birthday
Yesterday I just dinner to interns and got meeting
My friends always ask why you so busy
AIESEC really busy hor...
But I thought I just went to dinner and supper only
Meeting just a usual "gathering" in my team

But when I back to my room and saw my roommate studying to prepare the mid-term this coming friday
and my friend told that only me not yet finish my part of group assignment
have to email to group leader before 12pm(that time is 12am)
too much I not yet do...
Everyone go to sleep
only me burn the midnight oil rushing the assignment...

Then a question appear in my mind
"If I not join AIESEC,
may be
I'm now finished my assignment already
and may be I'm preparing for exam now "
But this notion deterred very fast...

If I not join AIESEC,
What will be happen me?
I cant meet with all the awesome AIESECer
I cant learn something that I cant learn on textbook
I cant learn how to manage my time
My uni life may be worse
no one guide me as them
no one motivate me them
I might be no social life here...

AIESEC is not my obstacle in my university life
AIESEC is the way I growing up

Joined AIESEC almost two month,
All the memories in AIESEC is beautiful
Nicholas, gene harn, joee, sabrina, yun seh etc
they all are my awesome friends...
Other AIESECers I also like to make friend with them so much
Every gathering I enjoy very much
So many miracles i cant expect appear...
Every JD in AIESEC not the things make me busy
But is the way i learn more...

Perhaps now still cant see any difference but
There is really difference in future...


Monday, September 20, 2010

领悟

突然想用华语写我的部落格,
虽然今晚有考试,
但还是想诉说我此刻的心情...

回想起假期前的我,
难以形容...
在假期前,我的生活是灰色的...
我的情绪就像天气般,
阴晴不定...
有时可以很轻松的开怀大笑,
有时可以紧张得满怀心事...
这是我由此以来最最最难熬的一段日子..
仿佛掉入一个黑暗的深渊里
看不到阳光,陷入绝望之中...

当时的我把这世界看得十分灰暗,
觉得自己很难可以熬过这一关...
尤其是考试的那一个星期,
压力大到真的有点自暴自弃...
觉得绝望到对任何事情都无所谓了...

看回之前的我真的觉得自己当时是多么的悲观,
两个星期的假期是我充电的时间...
没有读书,没有赶功课的两周...
只有散散心和休息,
放松心情和远离繁忙的世界...

假期的最后一天,我告诉自己
现在真的要开始加倍努力了...
别再自暴自弃了,
赶快收拾心情吧...
别人能做到为什么你不能?
我知道懒惰是我最大的缺点,
我不可以再让自己虚度光阴,
懒洋洋,逃避现实得让时间一天一天得过...
努力努力, 奋斗奋斗

知道为什么我总爱跟学姐和学长相处吗?
因为总可以在聊天时
知道他们的生活, 听他们诉说他们的故事...
当中其实就可以学到很多东西...
有时他们就这样不知不觉得鼓励我前进...

他们的经验可以告诉我
他们其实也曾经经历过难熬的时刻...
别看他们都好像非常厉害的样子,
其实他们也只是一个普通人,
没有超能力,不会魔法,
就是经历过风风雨雨才能走过来...
每个人都有自己的故事...
其实不用特地的向他们请教,
他们每个都愿意分享他们自己的故事..
也觉得欣慰的是有时我有任何疑问时,
他们愿意尝试帮我解决...

有位学姐让我领悟一点
在我在哀怨任何不满时,
不妨想下这世界上有比你更糟的人
为什么我不能感到欣慰现在我所拥有的一切

有位学长他的生活总是如此的繁忙,
可是只是偶尔听他发泄一下...
他还是很积极地过他的生活,
没有看过他有压力只有动力,
没有看过他因此而放慢脚步...
 如果是我的话...
我可能早就放弃了...
这就是我十分佩服的一点
也是我要学习的地方...

其实很简单...
只要找到我的原动力
那就是我前进的力量...
只要找到我的热诚
那就是我前进的目标...
也不要忘记对自己许下的承诺



Friday, September 17, 2010

What I am thinking now

Dont know why I start emotional again...
I just think that time is very cruel... 
It make me have to face reality that i dont want to face...
Holidays is a trap make me to keep dreaming... after holidays, I have no choice and have to wake up... 
I dont know am i try to escapism or lie myself... 
No matter how i try hard to keep dreaming, reality still exist...

University life really not as fun as I expect..
Before I got into uni,
people always say uni is fun and enjoyable..
It just a positive side..

For me, it really not fun..
I miss my highschool life..
That time my result really just not so good and not so bad...
I never thought about time
I just got a simple life there..
I like math, I always want to be the highest marks in class
Although I felt bio is boring,
I still willing to read it and put time on it...

Then,
Matriculation at labuan
I still study..
I still do my tutorial
I still listen in lecture...
But that time I start put the result(pointer) as the most important purpose why i want to study...
Great 4.00
But it really not the actual standard i can get
It just a "lie"
to make my parent feel relieved...
I told my friend i become lazy,
they just ask lazy now then later can get good result??

I dont know when I start become lazy,
After matriculation,USM
Orientation week... haha
A honeymoon,
just a calm before the storm...
Then reality start appear in my life...
I dont know why i lazy,
I dont pay attention in lecture
I dont do tutorial
I dont study...

My passion to math is gone,
only become one of the subjects that i hate..
I got into uni not because I like study
I want to get a result that can make sure that i can graduate...
I want graduate in uni just because i want to have a better future...
Am i start giving up?
What I really want?


From a simple life become so complicate...
Is it because i start thinking too much
or this is what the reality is...
People want me stop thinking like that
It is not worse as what I am thinking now..
But I just feel that stop thinking just a excuse that making myself to face the cruel reality...
the way i try to escape from reality

Why is the reality make human grow up?
Can i choose not growing up?
Why dont i just have the simple life
Just like my childhood...
Go to school with fun...
I cant choose..
I dont have any choice ...
World is not a playground anymore...
Everyone have to grow up and face how the reality are..
This is the only way I have to pass...

Is it more better if i'm a robot
Just set a target...
study..
Then i can stop thinking others useless thing like what i'm thinking now...
My mind cant stop thinking
So many things stick in my mind...
I dont know how i can make it simple
Because the reality is not simple......











Thursday, September 16, 2010

Slight- A wonderful gift


Once there was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind.
She hated everyone, except her boyfriend.
He was always there for her.
One day she told him,
"If I could see the world, I will marry you."

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her.
When the bandages came off, she was able to see everything, including her boyfriend.
He asked her, "Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?" 

The girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The sight of his closed eyelids shocked her.
She hadn't expected that.
The thought of looking at him like this for the rest of her life led her to refuse to marry him.

Her boyfriend left in tears and days later wrote her a note saying:"Take good care of your eyes, my dear; for before they were yours, they were mine." 
Only a few remember what life was like before, and who was always by their side in the most painful situations.

The human brain often differs in thought when our status changes.


Saturday, September 11, 2010

LEAD my life

Last weeks I just went to LEAD( Leadership Exploration And Development) 2010
It's too bad that I not blogging that time
because there were a lot of things I wished to write it down...

LEAD really a awesome seminar
I learned a lot in these 3 days 2 nights
These few days I talked a lot, tried to speak out my opinions
no more lack of confidence
from step in to step out...
because I just felt that all were the same
before this I just felt that there are many leaders in newbies of AIESEC
And I were the most ordinary one...
But I can saw that we all just same, just want to learn and develop ourselves 
A greatest person also got one side of ordinary...

During this seminar, I aslo can knew more people
They shared their experiences and stories...
People you felt cold before suddenly became kind
(just try to talk to the person that you dont know)
Especially all Faci and OC
They worked hard for this seminar
( not for them but for us)
I still remember one of the faci said We are not a master
we just want to share what we know and experienced
Thank you very much....^^

In this seminar, I also saw the heart from each senior AIESECer,
Some of them have to graduate next year and,
some of them "aged" but still be one member in this family
One of them told me that just do what you like to do in AIESEC,
You no need have to love AIESEC,
Just love what you doing in AIESEC,
and build up the passion
(I like this phrase so much)


Someone also told me that 
I'm quiet girl but impressed when saw me great performance in LEAD
Sabrina also asked me that how can i change(grow) so fast
I cant get a suit answer 
i think LEAD made me grow up...
There was a big change for me...
I hope that i can keep 'growing'
I hope that next times I meet them
I become better...
What I confuse now ??
Is my brave and confidence will disappear after LEAD?


Lastly,
I love sugar cubes so much...
Why dont we set up a sugar cube corner at AIESEC Cubicle??


* I like this picture so much...
  Thank gene harn and sorry if i used this picture without your permission
( Is this picture copyright reserve?)