落空的等待

约好一起去吃晚餐

只是一个普通的晚餐，就这么简单

结果等了超过3小时

快闷死了。。

开始画了起来

他告诉我还要等蛮长的时间

他居然叫我离开。。 我可是等了很久了

我最讨厌就是等待

我却白等

生气的我掉头就走

独自一人走回家

你希望我体谅你，哪谁又能体谅我的心情

对不起，能够把我等待的时间换回来吗？

漫长的时间我都在等待

你知道那种感觉是如何吗？

Nicholas's Birthday (Sugar Cube)

23.2.2011 is Nicholas 23th birthday
We all planed a birthday surprise last min (Sorry for that)
We all know that there was no surprise at all...
But we had a wonderful night

Actually I just try to make the only one birthday that I can celebrate with him become meaningful
Yup... This will be the first, the last and the only one birthday, we can celebrate birthday with him
Sound sad right? All we can do just create more memorable moment with him
2 more month, he will graduate..

I just flash back all the moment we all spent with him
The first time I met him is during AIESEC Interaction Night
I just paid him RM 5 for dinner of Induction day

Induction day and when my AIESEC journey started, he is the one who guide me and close with me when I sat there alone. He is my first friend in AIESEC
I dont know why many people said: "Nicholas is a very straight person"
Dont know why I just cant scent it..
He is just a normal guy

The first time we eat lunch together is at sungai dua there
And I still remember that time I asked him to be my mentor
I guess that time he start observe and analysis me,his new member. LOL

He is not only my boss, he also is a friend that we always asking for hang out
Too many time hang out with him is not good
Because next term we will lost a friend that can asking to hang out

I ever saw his laugh die face during hang out with him at McD
That time we played guessing game and saw his evil laugh
I saw his satisfied smile during MyLDS
He said we have to graduate already and saw the newbies come in

I saw his shy facial when he bullied by Paris
And that time he really not dare to fight...LOL
Really two person with "Serious Nicholas"

I saw his childlike face when he eating
That why sometime he asked me why I smile or laugh when we eat together...

I still remember got one midnight we supper together
About OCP stuff....That time I quite emo
But when I went back.. I just smile and feel satisfied
I dont know why...

I still remember the sems break started
He stayed at AIESEC house one night then he have to went back to his hometown
And I miss the chance to say good bye to him
I felt sad that time (...)

I dont know how long I would say I still remember
For you, you said too many thing happened during your last year
I felt great that can be part of it..=)

I'm Unique

Everyone is special and different
Dont envy what people have and you dont have
Because what you have, others dont have
Everyone of us have different talent and different role in our lives 
That is why we are unique and different from others


In our lives, we went through some elections or competitions etc
Sometime you will ask why he or she is the one who chosen but not me
That is because this is not the right time yet
Believe that faith is truth
Dont disappointed
Still have another chance or another way that you can go
Believe that God has a plan for you
It will come when there is the right time


Remember to appreciate you are chosen 
Try to utilise what you have, what you get and you are chosen
This is a gift 
Last but not least is share to others
Sharing is a gift that you can give and benefit others

Russia Interactive Class 2

Another Russia Interactive class yesterday...

So weird...

Second time went to Russia Class but still occurred some incidents...

After I finished my dinner with my friend at Sungai Dua, I need to go to Russia class'

Suddenly raining heavily...

However, I still non-stop and keep going back to USM with my little umbrella

On the way, I played with my friend, June

We just carzy said want to take away the umbrella and get wet in the rain...LOL

But we didnt do it because I still need to go to class and worry later both of us get sick...

I didnt want to miss the class yesterday

Because the topic of the calss is "Traditional Handmade Toy"

My most favorite part...=)

This is called Pokosnitsa (Mowing Girl). During haymaking time once a year ( June- July), adult will go out working whole day and need to left their children at home.

To avoid their children feel bored at home, they will make the dolls to let their children play around.

Do you wonder why the dolls have no eyes and mouth on the face

because they believe that if we draw the eyes, nose and mouth on the face, the spirit of evil will get inside the dolls.

Left hand side one is putting seeds inside the body and right hand side can put some herbs to smell and relax

This is a reference of handmade toy book. There are variety type of dolls we can make and each type got own explanation and stories...

In my childhood, I fall in love with handmade crafts

But I dont have money to but the material to practice and make it.

So great that this is my first time made doll...

Previously, I made duffel bag (束口袋）, key chain with name, gift box and so on

I can said that I really enjoy my Uni Life..=)

Everyone is same

Have you wonder why I borned in this family?
Why I am my dad and mum daughter?
Or even when there is anything not prefect in your family?
You will start asking yourself
Why I have a relative who is gambler or OKU?

Please dont feel shame or grumble why you were born in such family
No need to care about how others people judge you or look you down
In the view of God, WE ALL ARE SAME
Whatever you were born from a rich or poor family
Appreciated what we have and who we are

Just post a little sharing what I get today
Too bad I dont have enough information..=(

Russia Interactive Class

From Monday, B.U.D.A.Y.A. (Building Unity & Developing Awareness through Youth of AIESEC) already started the interactive classes
And I registered for Russia Class and Taiwan Class which I have to attend every Monday& Tuesday for Russia and Thursday and Friday for Taiwan.
Every time just need to attend one hour.
Everyday will be different topic
Each country got five topics


This monday I missed the first Russia class because I got meeting
The topic is "Introduction to Russia"
Yesterday, I also almost missed the second class...
My tutorial class ended at 7pm and I direct rushed to dinner with AIESECers and interns for farewell
I thought that I can leave before 8pm so that I can attend the Russia Class


However, my dinner extended until 8.30pm
Mean that Im late to attend the class
On the way to the class, the time already reached 8.40pm
My friends just said :" Is too late, why you still want to go?"
" It will ended when you reached, If me, I wont go for the rest 20 minutes"


But that time I really want to attend the class
The topic for the class is " Traditional Painting"
Finally I made it...
I just went there and attend the rest 20 min
I really satisfied and didnt regret I still try to go for it
I really very happy
Whole day just rushed for lectures and tutorials
Attended this classes just lost tiredness
Painting made me get back to peace and relax
After this painting class, I also observed that others people who attend this class too they really satisfied and happy...


Sorry, I really not purposely late for this class
Next class I will be punctual because next class will be my favorite class "Traditional Handmade Toy"
Exciting*


When you really want something, just go for it
Although it is too late, but if you really want it
Dont be afraid how much you missed already
Most important is you try to make it
At the end, you will know that it is still not too late
You wont regret the decision you made..=)

These paintings called "Mezensky . Ornament"  is drew by my teacher, Katerina Makanina

This is my painting. Not satisfied. just learn it last minute 

Photography Section

Ending of my New Year

My Chinese New Year officially end...
What coming up next? Valentine day..LOL
I think just another usual day...

My CNY for this year really very short...
Just 4 day...
Raininng heavily first and second day
First day of CNY already heard a good news
My dad won a lottery.. RM 1000

Took some pictures with my sisters...=)

This is kek lapis... Very famous in Sarawak... I ordered from my friend who studying in Sarawak
So delicious... Next time order again.. perhaps during June..=)

First day open school already very tired
Assignments, Mid-term exam, Tutorial homeworks and AIESEC stuff welcomes me back to Penang
Tomorrow have Mid-term Titas
These subject is like history
Gonna study now..=)
Miss my bed at home so much
Just wait 3 months more
After that, I can go back again..=)

Gathering With My Primary Schoolmates

The most behind one is my teacher. Do you think he is very young just same with us?

Gathering with my primary schoolmates
We just flashed back the moment we studying in one class
One of my schoolmates has a good memory
She can remember many moment between all of us

When she kept talking about all of us
I just worry suddenly she will told others about what I did during my primary school
For example, I like a teacher before and other bad & some foolish things..
Haha...Fortunately, she didnt...
If not, I will feel every paiseh...

Besides that, during my childhood, I also did one bad thing which is I dont want to hide it and I need to admit
That will be my stain in my life
Perhaps others forgot already but I never ever forget it


My teacher told that that time I really talked less
And that was not like me
Haha.. My mind came out one thing
Then am I a talk active person in your impression during primary school?
Am I changed?
I think that is me
I like to observe and become a listener
Gossip just listen but not involve to talk
Because we dont have qualified to judge other people
Sorry for me to say that

One of my schoolmate also grateful that we have such gathering
Because our gathering not same with others
We all talking about the past when we were studying in primary school
In some gathering, got people keep asking others current situation
Means asking about Job, salary, relationship
Always compare to others and showing off
This such gathering better not attend

I think this is our 6th or 7th times gathering
And recently we just created a group called primary school memory
Got 61 people joined this group and this group quite active
Hope to keep this and will have more such gathering in the future

New Year Eve

Today is Chinese New Year Eve...
I just sitting in front of my desktop and online
Keep thinking and waiting

I feel peace and down
I keep thinking what I have to finish after new year holiday
My mind appear AIESEC stuffs, assignments, mid-term exams and tutorial homeworks
How I gonna finish all those thing before next week

Deepest inside my heart keep telling me
It is impossible for me to finish within these few day
I'm just cant accept the reality
Is it this is the truth?

What I already accepted is I will have a working new year holiday which I feel this holiday not for new year celebration anymore
I dont have the new year mood...

Time is flying...