Christmas gift

Merry Christmas to all of you...=)

Long time didnt update already...

Still go many drafts in my blog that didnt post yet..

All about my MyLDS trip...

Never mind, I will post it late...

24th is Christmas Eve and my First semester result also out on that day...

Guess what pointer I got???

I got 3.07... 2 A-, 3 B & 2 B-

Sound not bad but I still not satisfied what I got..

Yup, Im the one who like to compare with each other...

Seriously, my level still so difference with my friend

My friend much better than me...=)

At the begining,  I feel upset that I got 3.07

At the dangerous line, almost not more than 3.00..sigh~

And I is far and far from the pointer that I "wished"

I just dream that I can get 3.5 but reality I knew that I not did well in first sems

But all is expected...

I knew that first sems I really played a lot, became lazy and didnt focus in my study

Every time after the things happened  always tell myself I can do more better actually

But I always not prove it in action

Even thought I always compare to my friend

How they hardworking than me

and how much they smarter than me...

I always think that Im the weakest among them 

In fact, Im still weaker than them 

But what I proud of myself is I joined AIESEC and become AIESECer

First sems I grew with AIESEC experience

This is what is different from others..=)

And that day also, I decided to buy a new laptop for myself...

Because I got the allowance from JPA already..=)

After I got my result... I start asked myself...

People will but a gift for themselves as a reward when they achieved their goal

But I failed to achieved my goal

Why I still want to buy the laptop???

I still cant 100% convince myself...

And I quite surprised that my mum didnt say any thing when I told her my result

She just asked me are you satisfied what you get?

And at the same time I just got the permission to buy the new laptop from my parent

Last night I just asked my mum and my mum said go and ask your dad

But glad that my dad agree... And gave me some advises...

This is my special christmas gift

How about you?? =)

My choice

Today I bought one of my favorite drink
Chocolate milk tea plus decoco..=)
Every time I want to drink the tea,
I always choose this favour...

I always like to choose the same thing...
Go one place eat, I always choose the same food
Go anyway, I always choose the seat I sit before...
Sometimes just feel like want to change or try new one
But in the end I still choose the usual choice

I'm not dislike to change or try new thing
But it is hard for me to choose something
Perhaps the new one will better than present one?
Or perhaps the new one not ideal than present one?
But most important is I like the present one
I'm no need to change or try new one
Because I really enjoyable now..=)
I no need to know how good the new one is

Every time people ask me what you want, which you like or where you prefer to go
My answer always is let them decided.. I'm no comment.
I can accept what their decision without any complain
For me, others happy, I'm happy
If people ask me to choose and when I chose, they dislike or unhappy
I dont want tis happen... Just spoil the mood

You can said that I dont have my own thinking or idea
But my thinking and idea just simple
I care others, I care what they want
This is my choice... I care what they really want...
Just tell me what you want but not ask me "what you want"...
But sometimes just because I not dare to make a choice
I will panic if people waiting my answer and I still cant make a decision or choice..
I prefer others choose for me rather then I choose myself
Dont think that I care what people feel
May be just because I dont know what I have to choose...XD