Saturday, January 1, 2011

These few days

I dont know why I just cant feel better
I need ice-cream now
Ice-cream can cheer me up...
I know I have to control my emotion
But this is the place that I express my feeling

Recently I start filling a form of  application Execution Board
And I feel like this form already kill many cells in my body
I dont know why I just cant fill anything in this form
Notion to give up always appear in my mind
But at the same time I tell myself I have to fill the form and send it

Day to day the dateline is getting closer
I start panic
My notion to give up getting stronger
Today I read the note that wrote by an AIESCer
Sorry, still cant inspire me to just go for it
However,I dont know why I so touch about what she wrote
and my tears just came out from my eyes
I ask myself why... But I couldnt find the answer

Am I look this application too heavy?
Am I tension?..
Why I cant fill it just like writing essay?

I know that I have to pass this hard time
Bless me every thing will be ok....


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