Still have one more week then final exam
Stress start increasing...
This Semester I wish to get 3.2
This is what I 'wish'
I know I dont put much effort to reach this point
But I will try to reach the point

Im very clear I cant lose it
I still remember last time during my MA exam
I closely want to cry out already
I dont know how to do it seriously
I never felt this before during final exam

Currently 3.07
If this term I get a result is bad then I will cry out
I cant lose anymore
Although I know this term really harder than last term

This target I just come out recently
Not because Im not plan it early
Just because I need to consider my ability to reach the target

My friend asked me
What is your plan for this term or next term
I always say I dont have any plan
Seriously I really dont have any plan

I not the person who will plan for future
Im the person who follow each step I walked
I never worry how will be my future
Or what I want in my future

Because I know that I will have the answer that time
Plan early prepare early
This is a good statement
But I know sometimes it wont happened for me what I have plan before
It will change by time
I never know what will happen next second
I wont know how is my ability and capacity that time

I only can wish what I want
But I cant plan what I want
Perhaps it will feel more better when I lose it
Dont put so much faith on the thing I really want
Because the feeling of disappointed is much more stronger when I fail

That why I cant promise anything at least I strongly believe I can do it
When I promise someone and I cant keep the promise
I will make the people around me feel disappointed to me
Even my friend and my family
I wont promise anything until the result is come out
I prefer to give a surprise to them

I know perhaps this is not a good thing
If I plan early perhaps I can reach the point
However, I wont ready to flight when the time is not coming yet
But I just need chance to improve
I believe I can improve my life...=)