When I fall down
I can tell myself I can get up and continue
I can convince people ya Im ok with that
But I need more time to get up from the ground

When there is a wound that healed
I still can see there is still a scar
It still feel pain inside although the wound is healed

When I feel disappointed
I can tell myself I wont give up
But it just a sentences that I tried to motivate myself
It still a hard time for me to cheer up

When I know the way is wrong
I can tell myself
This is not the way out
I need to find another way
But actually Im lost

When Im crying in front of people
I tell myself
Shit, you cant cry in front of them
That is unpresentable
But Im dont know how to stop

When people judge me
I can smile and accept their advances
I tell myself
When people judge you, is good for you
benefit still belong to you at the end
But actually I will start to judge myself too
I lose my confident

When I ask myself to stop thinking
Actually I dont realize that I still keep  thinking
I further think much and much

Sorry,
I cant lie on myself and behave nothing happen
sometimes I just wish to escape
Perhaps just one second
But I tell myself I need to face it
And I need to solve but not looking the problem happen only