Failure in my AIESEC journey

Almost one week didnt update my blog.

Last week just keep busy with my exam marathon.

After exam then I just keep busy to have fun...XD

I still remember before the day of my first exam of exam marathon

I get a bad news.

I didnt selected in any position 

Actually that day after I went to Batu Ferringhi with my friend

I saw the email and I had few second that I didnt want to open it before my exam is end

Finally, I just opened it.

I cried. I keep crying until I asked myself to go to take a nap

It will feel better

That day actually I didnt study anything

One of the reason is I studied the wrong chapters that didnt cover in final exam

Fortunately, my exam is afternoon so I still have time to study

I know that I care about this seriously

It means important to me

Even last time I didnt get the VP, vice president and team leader I didnt feel sad like this

It just like a hit for me

I feel sad quite a few days

I knew that I need to pass through the exam

I need to focus on it

I keep asking myself to stay strong no matter how

I used few day to heal myself 

After that, I realized another sad thing

I dont have any chance to take position anymore 

I didnt get PD for my second year

and I need to go for internship in my third year

My last year in uni life, am I still can get any position?

I just cant answer it.

This is thing that I feel I really fail in my whole year of uni life

Time cant go back anymore 

From I lost in vote of confident and no chance to become VP

I keep thinking that I want to become manger/PD 

I want to go for step by step 

But seems that I lost my dream...

You can said that when we missed a chance

Perhaps there is another better chance waiting for us.

I use to be think like this

But it not always true 

I dont even know what is the next chance or will the next chance exist?

I only can wait the answer...