After joined two nights youth revival conference...
Through out this conference,
I can saw how the youth love Him so much and how much effort they put on spreading the gospel
Besides that, I also feel how strong their spirit and they are willing to take part in revival

I still remember before this conference
My friend asked me:" You accept Christian already?"
I said no... I just give some reasons like
I have to consider my family and I need a huge courage to leave my current religion..
Now I can said that all is rubbish.. just an excuse
When I made the decision, I never think about all those excuse

When they were kneeling
I had few seconds struggle whether I need too...
But I get the answer clearly, no...

So many questions pop out on my mind..

I asked myself what the purpose I sang the song of praise and worship songs...

They sang the songs because they show their love and praise Him

But I just sang the song without any purpose

I still not know Him

I still remember long time ago 

My friend pray with me..

Asking what zhi yi Him want to put on me..

I still havent get the answer

Yesterday the door just in front of me

But I just decided not to open it

Because I havent get the answer yet

I cant open it without knowing who is Him

I heard many stories how He love them

But so far never have one can inspired me

Because I dont know Him yet

I always tried to know him more

But it is not enough yet

My tears dropped out after I told the answer

Not because I regretted I didnt stand in front

Not because I made my friend disappointed, I know she will understand

Is because I still cant accept Him

Im not the one who have the courage to pass through crowds and stand in front of Him

Im not dare to do that because I not qualified yet, my spirit is not there yet 

Sorry, I have to get the answer first 

I can choose to accept Him full with faith on Him 

or I accept Him but at the end I realized no purpose at all
Is no point...

That is just a ceremony that you said you accept Him

But heart is more important when you said out sincere: I accepted Him

"Take your time", He pleased to say